Mother of Two
As I prepared to embark on the motherhood of two kids many
things went through my head. Am I
ready? Will I be able to provide
enough attention for Corbyn? Will this change the dynamics of my household so
much that I will miss the days before? Will I be able to balance my time in
order to make time for myself? I know my answers will change and I will meet
rough patches but I am confident I will always come back on track. I recently
read an article about the devil stealing your motherhood and it really resonated with me. It was such a great reminder for me. We
(I) tend to feel inadequate, compare ourselves with books and other people and just try to keep up with the world around us. If we sit back and really enjoy what is in front of us all
those worries slip away. Because
those moments are what make up a lifetime and if we spend them worrying about
all the silly stuff life will pass us by. My boys aren't perfect nor am I the perfect momma but we are perfect for each other. God gave me them knowing this.
I was definitely ready! Ready
to fill my heart with much more joy and fill my days with that many more
memories. Because just when you
think your heart doesn’t have any more room, it most certainly proves you
wrong. As far as giving attention
to Corbyn I think Bryan and I have found a healthy balance. It took a little work but every good
thing takes work. He definitely
hasn’t felt neglected and if anything has felt more love. He likes to state, but it sounds like a question (because
most sentences he says now sound like a question) , “You love me”. This is also came a great time in our
lives when Bryan has and will be around more. Do I miss the days before? I do miss
them sometimes but I love our days now even more. Corbyn and I had a great 3 ½ years together and I am
grateful for that. Have I been able to find time for myself? Yes, probably
because I am more relaxed and Bryan is around to help. For the last five months I have been
able to get the boys down for afternoon naps at the same time. That has been key to making time for
me. I also have a babysitter who is lovely. She takes care of the boys while I work out or run errands and we get to go on dates. She is also so kind to
help me tidy up! The little things are so huge. Also, living in the same country as the grandparents really does make a difference.
Being a mom of two is definitely double the fun and double
the work. I continue to
learn and grow daily and for that I am thankful. I do my best (most of the time) and try(really try) to keep
patient. Patience is something I pray for. Also, I have many moments where
I think, “If I knew then, what I know now I would have done this” . I am sure most second time moms have
those moments. Looking back on the first time I was pretty clueless and my bag of tricks is much fuller now. Motherhood truly is an amazing gift and I am forever grateful
that I was chosen for this job.
As far as the two together, oh I can already see the little mischief makers at work. Since day one
Corbyn has asked, “ Is he growing bigger?” He wants him to sleep with him, play cars with him, ride in
the wagon with him, etc. He is
very interactive with him and I swear it’s the most precious thing I have ever
seen. He tells me, “my cars are
his cars and this is his play room too (again in question form bc that is just
what Corbyn does).” I think he is
giving himself a pep talk for when the time comes and the harsh reality
hits. Tristyn is enamored with
Corbyn and Corbyn is what I like to call easy and free entertainment. I can already tell they will have a
special bond for life and I can already see how they will balance each other
out. Just like any other mom I am so excited to watch them grow together.
I am enjoying this parenting of two gig and I hope they are
enjoying it just the same.
The link to the article I mentioned.
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