On the day I found out you were are BOY and since then……..

Hi growing little guy, 

Let me tell you about a very special time in our life! The day we found out you were a boy was emotional and marvelous all in the same.  The day started with an anatomy scan to make sure you were growing big and strong. You gave us a big thumbs up letting us know everything was going to be okay.  

Our smiles were as big as they could be as your daddy and I looked at the screen and then back at each other.  We couldn’t wait to get home to tell your brothers all about it.  Corbyn was thrilled to see the pictures.  Mid day I received a call from the doctor letting us know my blood work was back and ready for pick up! This would reveal your gender! We wanted to discover this together as a family.  We decided to let cousin Courtney, who you will grow to love, give your brothers sprinkles but we didn't know what color! Once your brothers sprinkled the white cake we would know by the color (blue or pink).  When the sprinkles came out I said “I knew it” while daddy said “that’s what we do”.  I held it together quite well baby.  You will learn that many women want a daughter and the same goes for men and a son.  Your daddy did well in this department.  This was my last chance, no more babies for this momma (after you of course)! No trying for number 4 for this family. I want to be honest with you and tell you I cried that night. I cried about the fact that I wouldn’t ever have a daughter. I cried that I would miss out on the ruffles and the bows.  Here’s the thing, it’s totally normal.  Guess what? It even happens when moms find out they are having a girl instead of a boy. I know a few mommas that did this.  Women can be very emotional and you will learn that first and foremost from your very sensitive mother.  Crying was just something I needed to do.  However, it’s been a few days and I am falling more and more in love with the idea of having three boys needing their momma!  The feeling of contentment and excitement is filling me up! I can hear it now, “Here come the Wolfe Boys”.  My biggest wish is that when people say that, they are saying it as if it's an exciting thing. That I raise you to be gentleman! All three of you.  God gave me a HUGE job and I am getting quite nervous about fulfilling it.  As you grow and get stronger in my belly I’ll be praying on my end to continue to be the best boy mom I can be.  Just as your expectations should be high of me, mine will be of you.  I will never have the mother/daughter relationship I have with my momma but I will have three boys that will and better take good care of their momma! There is no void that needs to be filled.  I have been so blessed with many female relationships on many different levels.  The closest relationship to a mother without all the extra stress is being an aunt.  I am an aunt to three beautiful girls, two of which are growing into young women and my relationship with them continues to grow stronger.  These relationships are so very special.  So it remains, I am the queen of MY house.  That’s not a bad deal. In fact it’s a great deal!  I prayed hard for you little guy!!! My journey to becoming a mother of three boys hasn’t been easy but I am so grateful for all that I have been given.  I rejoice that God is giving me another chance at being a mom!!! For now, I imagine how you will be! How life will look like with you as part of our pack.  It’s going to be beautiful, it’s going to be grand.  More little boy snuggles, more pucker ups,  more dinosaur roars, more start your engines, more ninja moves, more taking risks without looking back, more stories filled with dragons and monsters, more running fast without stopping, but most importantly more love!!  There is no need to feel bad for this momma.  Three Boys! That’s fantastic! 

I love you so hard baby boy, 

your momma!

PS We need to work on a name because as of right now Corbyn's vote is Bill Peter and Tristyn's vote is Iron Man.  Both great names but we are going to keep searching.